So, CA1 is approaching in 1 WEEK. 1 FREAKING WEEK.
Reality hits so hard, its like you dont have enough time.
Why is time something which you cant turn back? Regrets haunt me everyday, and im wondering why I didnt work harder, why this why that.
I guess everyone does have regrets, even the most 'perfect' people.
I honestly dont know why Im doing this, when ive tons of things to do now.
But the truth is that... I'm scared.
Scared of failure. Have you ever been afraid to try hard not because the process would be too
tough to handle but because you're afraid that your efforts you've put it wont reap into what you want? Sometimes i honestly cant even face myself, im just way too useless.
I feel like a failure cos sometimes I try so hard yet my results are like crap, and the worst
thing is just cos im in SN, my parents and whole family think I'm smart.
i dont want to disappoint them. Cos i know myself the best.
Its not that i dont try honestly, I DO. I put in effort in most of the things i do yet NOBODY sees it. Like teachers. They think im just lazy and stupid which is supposedly true, but..
thats why i gotta prove them wrong.
I wish i was clever, pretty, talented, great personality, now i dont even know what i want to be in the future, what the future holds for me.
Its painful to see disappointments.
This isint emo-ing, its just expressing feelings.
Conclusion: Have faith. Im just gonna trust God, cause he has a great plan for me. Whatever it is, just live each day at a time, let tomorrow worry for itself.
Everyone has good and bad days. Its those bad days that hurt the most.